Little Black Dress and High Heels

La de da de da. Well yea...how are you doin?

August 17th is the first day of my last semester of grad school!!! Yay me!!! I am really excited that about this and I cannot wait to walk across that stage. Well yea...anyway. I have come to the conclusion that I am going to travel more often. Staying in one spot has become boring and I need to get out more. This weekend I am headed to the coast for a couple of days. I need to start looking for a hotel while I am thinking about it. I can't wait to see Lori, et.al...it has been a while. Also, planning a trip to Texas in October...anyone else want to go? ACL is that weekend and I wanted to see Kings of Leon, John Legend and a few others. Not much has been going on lately, just trying to enjoy myself, work and try not to hurt a few people. =)

Lately I have been thinking about my life. I have a great family, wonderful friends, fair health, a job and a place to stay. I feel blessed. Although this is so, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed lately. I know that I can get it all done, so the anxiety that I am feeling cannot be explained. My habit of procrastinating until the last minute does not help matters. This is a flaw that I am working on, but it seems I have yet to master any control over my ways. Oh well. I have stayed up too late and I have to rise too early, so I guess I will go to bed. Good Night.

Im down a one way street
With a one night stand
With a one track mind
Out in no mans land
(the punishment sometimes dont seem to fit the crime)

Yeah theres a hole in my soul
But one thing Ive learned
For every love letter written
Theres another one burned
(so tell me how its gonna be this time)

Is it over
Is it over
Is it over
cause Im blowinout the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find theres nothing there girl
Yeah I swear, Im telling you girl yeah cause
Theres a hole in my soul thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows
Theres a hole in my soul, yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn without a rose

Im as dry as a seven year drought
I got dust for tears
Yeah Im all tapped out
(sometimes I feel broken and cant get fixed)

I know theres been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on but youre still in my head
(and something tells me this time Im down to my last licks)
cause if its over
Then its over
And its driving me insane

Is it over
Yeah its over
And Im blowin out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find
Theres nothing there girl, yeah, I swear
Im telling you girl yeah cause theres a hole in my soul
Thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows theres a hole in my soul,
Yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn
Without a rose

My head hurts. I feel absolutely foolish. I am letting this shit go.

Ok....I TOTALLY PASSED MY COMPREHENSIVE EXAM!!!!! I think I scared the majority of the computer lab as a short, but loud screech was made. lol. One girl came over and gave me a hug and congratulated me,lol. YAY ME!!!

Well yea...today I walked in the Anderson Cup. I had a good time and I must say that I am exhausted. Me and mom left the house at 7:30 and we got back at 11. Ok...so yea I got second place in my age group. When I went up to accept my trophe thing I turned to walk back and the most beautiful creature was just standing there. I swear I lost my damn mind. Proof of this was that I said "excuse me" and he was not even in my way. Damn...the jeans fit perfectly, the shirt was a glove and did I meantion he was a looker? So he asks me "are you going to have your picture made?" All I could do was look at him and say "huh?" I promise you my mind did not function...all I could say was "huh." He then repeated it and again I was lost. lol. I finally caught on and took the damn picture. *sigh* I am pitiful. His sidekick was a cutie too. I was like dammmnnnnnnnn. But I got a real kick out of my moment...thought you guys would too.

So how you doing?

Well I am officially a quarter of a century. I think I may be having, as John Mayer says, a quarter life crisis. LOL. Today was a good day. It was sunny and I am still breathing. I was having a bit of tension in my chest this morning and it was a bit hard to breathe at one point, so I was commanded (yes...commanded) by my mother to go to the ER. It didn't take them too long, I only stayed for two hours. They told me it was not my heart and that it was a strained muscle in my chest...the doctor said it was common. The bright side to the whole hospital thing is that I got a nice nap while waiting. =) I tested for my blue belt today in Taekwondo. One of my teachers approached me afterwards to say that I did a great job. I was pleased with my forms today. To make my day better....IT WAS SUNNY!!!! No rain on my parade. I am planning on waking in the Anderson Cup tomorrow. Mom is going to run, but I said uhhh I'll walk. lol.

LORI- Thank you so much for the birthday card!!! It brightened my day. Tell Ms. Bella that I enjoyed her well wishes.

Thank you for the birthday wishes you guys! I feel the love.

Well my weekend in JXN went really well. I won two bronze medals and I got to hang with two of my girls. I had a WONDERFUL time with Gina and Quita and I wish it could have lasted more than just these two days. We spent a lot of time just talking and reminiscing about good times. Quita is just as crazy as she was from the beginning...ahhh I wouldn't change her for the world. It is time for a family reunion ladies...it is well past overdue. Life is interesting and it's much more interesting with you all in my life. I love you guys....I mean gals!


So how you doin?

Ok...am I the only one who remembers Zoobile Zoo? I use to love that show when I was a kid.

Secret #5: He can't help falling asleep after sex.

Let's set the mood: You've just had a steamy romp together, and you're ready for some more action. You slowly roll over, gaze into your man's eyes, and ... wait? Why aren't they open? And why is he snoring like a grizzly bear? Before you chalk him up to being an ungrateful bedmate, realize that he can't control his snooze reflex. Basically, a release of hormones makes him want to roll over and pass out following orgasm.

...I just thought it was funny.

Well anyway I had a good day. Ummm still wondering why people are the way they are, but I will never know that secret. I miss all of my ladies...I'm not sure you guys know how much. Life has gotten a little too busy for my taste and I don't like to juggle. I am ready for the weekend...TKD tournament in Jackson and I am ready to kick some ass (not literally)! Just realizing that I have two county conferences tomorrow and I hope all of my stuff is in my case files. In a mood to watch Stardust, but I can't find the CD (damn it). Guess I'm off to get ready for Taekwondo.

So how you doin?

Well I took comps today...its finally over. All there is to do now is wait. I am not sure how I did, but I hope I did well. I have also come to a decision today. After graduation I am thinking about moving. To where...I don't know. I love Meridian, but there is a limited amount of things to do here. Well yea. So how you doin?

My room has been changed a bit. I bought a new bed set. It is really pretty and of course...PURPLE! It is actually three different plum colors. It is beautiful. I also had to break down and get a book shelf for organizational purposes. Now my books have a place to live, yay books!

I started going to therapy last week. My first session was mostly intake (as I expected) and it went well. My counselor is a very positive and friendly woman...I think we will have a good working relationship. I hope that when I am doing counseling that I can build rapport that quickly (although I know that it won't be that way with every client). Well me and Meke called it...I have been having anxiety attacks. I saw the signs, ran it by Meke and we concluded that this was it and the counselor has confirmed. I go back on Friday at 6 p.m. and to be perfectly honest I am ready to go.

Tomorrow I do a counseling session with Shan for my class. It only has to be 20 minutes so I am not worried...too much. I say not too much, because I worry anyway. Well I am about to head to bed. Love you guys.

EXTRAORDINARY!!!

You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me

Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?

So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess

See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
SUPERGODDESS
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho

I LOVE YOU!!!! YES YOU...THE ONE READING THIS. YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY, TOTALLY, COMPLETELY, WITHOUT A DOUBT LOVED!!!!!

Well my cousins wedding went well. We had a good time and I am paying for it now. My legs, feet and ass are in pain from all the dancing me and Nazli did last night. My sugar girl got down last night ya'll!!! She danced the entire night...and the pain I am having is what I deserve for thinking I could have and maintain the energy of a 5 year old. The bride looked beautiful and the groom (as silly as he is) was handsome. It was a good time had by all. I spotted a F.I.L.F and a really cute groomsman...so I stayed true to form. =)

Hey Lori!!! How are you feeling today? I hope you are feeling much better. Write and let me know woman. Love you!

To all my other LBM ladies...I LOVEDED YOU GUYS!!!

I would just like to say that I am thankful. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. I received really good news today and it just lifts my spirits.

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Well hello everyone! I am hoping that your Christmas went well. I had a pretty good Christmas at home...YAY FOR AT HOME! My family came to me this year so I didn't have to leave during the day. I was glad to see everyone and it was good fun. Well yea, that morning I put in my contacts to realize that they felt odd and a bit painful. After having them in for about an hour I had to take them out...thus being partially blind. I had to wear mom's glasses for the entire day, but as you probably guessed the prescription was not strong enough for my eyes. So that afternoon we went to my uncle's house and had a good time with just family. I think my clan is getting crazier each year. I got to see some family that I have not seen in years and took several pictures. I love those nuts. Well yea Christmas went great. Remember the eye problems? Well yea, my eye was blood red pretty much all Christmas and the next day it was just really pink. I called to see if I could anyone and everyone to see if I could be seen, but no one was open. I then tried an answering service for the eye doctor that I go to, in hopes of finding a doctor that was on call. I was told that no one could be reached and that I would have to wait until Monday. At this point I think my mother had gotten pissed off with the whole lot of them, because when she called the same answering service, needless to say she had me an appointment for 20 minutes later. Did I mention how much my mother rocks? So yea, the doctor I went to see had a little attitude...guess he didn't like being on call for his holidays. How I look at it...I am on call for a full week 24/7 every two or three months, he will fucking live. Not to mention the fact that I sometimes have to get up at ungodly hours because some ass thinks it would be fun to abuse their kid. So yea..come to find out that I have an ulcer on my right eye. I cannot wear my contact in my right eye and I have no glasses until sometime next week. I was thinking of buying an eye patch and a parrot and calling myself "One-eyed Jack," but my mother is against it. =)

At the moment I am at Gina's with Meke...we are about to make our great escape!

How are ya'll doing?

I HAVE JUST E-MAILED IN MY LAST FINAL FOR THE SUMMER...YAY ME!!! The feeling of freedom has just washed over me, now lets just hope I passed. I am totally ready to be finished with school, but I still have two more semesters to go before I am done. As of, well forever, I have been really worried about not passing comps or my licensure exam. I know that with a lot of hard work and studying I will be fine, but what if I don't pass? There is always this constant nagging in the back of my head, plus work is not helping anything. On a happier note, I have officially been promoted to yellow belt in TKD. Maybe a bit kiddish of me, but I was totally excited about it. Since there is a two week hiatus between summer and fall classes, I am in the mood to go to the movies. I want to see Pineapple Express and someone needs to go with me...*hint*. I heard the new Batman movie was really good and my friend Casey said that the X-files movie rocked. NESSIE...I am going to be in the burg this weekend so be there if you can. Well yea, I miss and love you all! So now is your turn...how you doin?